A New Life

Finally

2009-11-22T16:04:00.000-08:00

For the first time since I had to move away, I finally got some good news. I found a way to get home for Thanksgiving. So I will get to see MSW. We plan on having a real good time for the few short hours we will see each other.

Oh yea, sorry about the lack of posting. When you work a "40" hour work week that turns out to be a 65 hour work week, it's tough to find time or energy to do much other than come home, eat, sleep and do the whole routine over again. And I guess no one liked the ant story. That's a bummer because I laughed pretty hard when I read it. I guess my sense of humor is much different than most people. But then again, most of my personality is much different than most people. Oh well, 3 day work week this week. And something to look forward to on the weekend.

MSM

Ants

2009-11-10T14:22:00.001-08:00

This gave me a chuckle.

OLD VERSION

The ant works hard in the withering heat all summer long, building his house and laying up supplies for the winter.

The grasshopper thinks the ant is a fool and laughs and dances and plays the summer away..

Come winter, the ant is warm and well fed..

The grasshopper has no food or shelter, so he dies out in the cold.

MORAL OF THE STORY: Be responsible for yourself!

MODERN VERSION

The ant works hard in the withering heat and the rain all summer long, building his house and laying up supplies for the winter.

The grasshopper thinks the ant is a fool and laughs and dances and plays the summer away.

Come winter, the shivering grasshopper calls a press conference and demands to know why the ant should be allowed to be warm and well fed while he is cold and starving.

CBS, NBC , PBS, CNN, and ABC show up to provide pictures of the shivering grasshopper next to a video of the ant in his comfortable home with a table filled with food.

America is stunned by the sharp contrast.

How can this be, that in a country of such wealth, this poor grasshopper is allowed to suffer so?

Kermit the Frog appears on Oprah with the grasshopper and everybody cries when they sing, 'It's Not Easy Being Green .'

ACORN stages a demonstration in front of the ant's house where the news stations film the group singing, "We shall overcome " . Then Rev. Jeremiah Wright has the group kneel down to pray to God for the grasshopper's sake.

President Obama condemns the ant and blames President Bush, President Reagan, Christopher Columbus, and the Pope for the grasshopper's plight.

Nancy Pelosi & Harry Reid exclaim in an interview with Larry King that the ant has gotten rich off the back of the grasshopper , and both call for an immediate tax hike on the ant to make him pay his fair share..

Finally, the EEOC drafts the Economic Equity & Anti-Grasshopper Act retroactive to the beginning of the summer.

The ant is fined for failing to hire a proportionate number of green bugs and, having nothing left to pay his retroactive taxes, his home is confiscated by the Government Green Czar and given to the grasshopper.

The story ends as we see the grasshopper and his free-loading friends finishing up the last bits of the ant's food while the government house he is in, which, as you recall, just happens to be the ant's old house, crumbles around them because the grasshopper doesn't maintain it.

The ant has disappeared in the snow, never to be seen again.

The grasshopper is found dead in a drug related incident, and the house, now abandoned, is taken over by a gang of spiders who terrorize the ramshackle, once prosperous and once peaceful, neighborhood..

The entire Nation collapses bringing the rest of the free world with it..

Rough Weekend

2009-11-08T18:34:00.000-08:00

This weekend was a tough one. MSW was having trouble in her life, while I was too hung up on the trouble in mine. I have been struggling emotionally with life and I have been a real downer because of it. I tried so hard to help MSW with her troubles, but in reality I needed to stop being a self centered depressed person and start being the person MSW can turn to in any situation. I know I am vague in all the details, but it's the details I am trying to forget. None of this probably makes sense to anyone reading it, but does life really make sense? So, this weekend was filled with a lot of high tension. A lot of stress in MSW's life along with the terrible distance between just made for a couple rough hours. I made it worse by feeling sorry for myself. I should have stopped being so selfish and just listened.

MSW will always be my only love. She will always be the girl I dreamed about meeting. I am done with my foolishness and depressed attitude. I am going to be happy because I have so many things to be happy about. I have a great job, good health and a beautiful girl who is in love with me. And yes, there are a lot of things in my life that are extremely chaotic, but it's time to focus on the great things.

I always hate how I never have anything to say or I never know how to say it. Look at what I write. A lot of it is incoherent and jumbled. At night when I lay awake and can't sleep, I have so many ideas and thoughts and insights. And if I just had the ability to write them down or record them somehow, I could probably write some real good books. Instead, the ideas just pile up in my brain with no escape. The same thing happens when I try to tell MSW my feelings. I feel so many things, and most of them are new to me, and I have so much trouble telling her how I feel. I love her so much. But I feel so much more, and I just don't know how to show her or tell her. I hope she will continue to be patient with me.

MSM

HNT: All tied up

2009-11-04T15:45:00.000-08:00

I miss her so much.

Distance

2009-11-03T16:38:00.000-08:00

This completely sucks. MSW and I are so far away from each other. I am struggling to get through each day without her. I just spend the days wishing I was with her. I miss her so much, and without her, I just get depressed. This is just me complaining about life and how unfair it is. Why can't life be easier?

MSM

HNT 3

2009-10-21T17:33:00.000-07:00

Here is some naughtiness from this past weekend.

MSM

MSW

2009-10-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone,

This is my very first post on this blog, and it took me a very long time to debate what I'm really going to write about. For those of you used to reading MSW at my old blog, I'm sure you're dying to find out what really happened between D and I since May, and in the beginning, I did intend to write a tell-all post.
But so much has really gone on in the past few months, so many mistakes, so many hearbreaks, for both D and I...that every mention of the past really feels like stirring up a pot of nightmares. And every thought of the past bothers D and I so much that to put it in words, for the world to read, for us to read...might just be too much for us to handle.

To be honest, we messed up bad. Yes, D really broke my heart, as most of you had followed on MSW, but what you didn't know is what happened after I stopped writing. My mistakes...my screw-ups...and the pain I ended up inflicting on D. It was almost like revenge.
To this day, months after our final mistakes and fights, months after D and I had gotten back together, I still don't know why we did the things we did. Maybe subconsciously we hated each other, or maybe secretly we're both really crazy people...but the past is the past, and maybe I'm a coward for running away from it...but all I really want to do is look towards the future.

I will offer you guys a little catch-up so everyone can be filled in. D has been at school with me for the past 6 weeks, and I can really say that the past 6 weeks had been the best of my life. I always thought that I was so happy with D, and I just can't love him anymore than I did. But the past 6 weeks had been a step up from even the happiest memories we had of the past.
The feeling of loving someone, and to be loved in return...only lucky people will know, and if you're not yet one of the lucky ones, don't lose hope...because it can always happen...especially when you least expect it.

All the Hallmark sayings aside, D had to finally leave me this past weekend to start work much farther away, and I am going through such D withdrawal.
I am too used to walking out of class and calling D, knowing he's somewhere on this campus, and I was only a few minutes away from a hug and a kiss.
Of course, my withdrawal is nothing compared to D's new life, in a brand new place that he doesn't know, with people that he doesn't know. And I know it takes so much courage for him to be working hard, moving forward.

D has changed so much since the our last separation. In a million ways, D has finally really become my dream man, and I'm so proud of him to be so strong, and so good at trying new things, like this whole blogging thing.

Truth is, that is really D's blog. I was so pleasantly surprised when he told me he was going to give blogging a try again, and it really put a grin on my face the first look I took of this page. It's better than I can hope for...it's perfect!
So I'm going to finish my guest post here, and pay attention to class like I'm supposed to. Comments will be disabled for this post because I want to give props to my love, who posted a first HNT of his sexy self below. So give D some love!

Thanks for being such patient readers and friends. I have gotten more support and friendship from you guys than I had ever hoped for when I first started blogging, and I am truly grateful.

Babe, I know it's tough being far away from each other, but like I tell you every single day, I know we'll be okay, and I know we can make it. I love you so much!

P.S. D's coming to visit me on Friday! So be prepared for an extremely steamy HNT next week!

xs and os,
MSW

HNT 2: Work sucks

2009-10-14T18:41:00.001-07:00

I finally started real life this week, and by real life I mean work. Why does anyone even work? It's pretty pointless. And it sucks a lot because I am away from MSW during the week. I miss her so much, and life just isn't good without her next to me. So to alleviate some of the distance and lonliness I give MSW a little show on my webcam after I shower at night. I know she always appreciates it.

HNT #1

2009-10-07T17:07:00.000-07:00

So this will be a first for this blog. I am sorry MSW and I have been so out of touch lately. We are just trying to enjoy our couple weeks we have together before I have to move for 6 months. My old computer with the virus was a complete disaster. It will probably never work again. I bought a new one to replace, so I finally can go online for more than 2 minutes. MSW was making lunch the other day and was wearing blue jeans and a shirt. She took her shirt off to get changed but she looked so hot with no top and jeans. We decided some pictorial evidence was needed of how good she looked.

Virus

2009-09-21T12:06:00.000-07:00

Sorry about the lack of posting. My personal computer recently got a virus which has rendered it useless for now. It may be a while until it works again. Until then I will try to use MSW's computer to do some updating. Maybe I can convince her to pose for some HNT pics. I am sorry for our complete absence from HNT. Next post I will try to update you on our naked escapades.

MSM

Busy

2009-09-09T06:05:00.000-07:00

MSW and I have been super busy enjoying each others company. Hopefully, we will have some time soon to update everyone. So far, this past week and a half with her has been the best 10 days of my life.

MSM

Excited!

2009-08-30T18:48:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow MSW and I will get to spend more than a few hours with each other. In fact, we get to spend the whole night together. I know this blog hasn't had much action when it comes to posting, but in the coming weeks, it should get more interesting. Of course there will be a lot more nakedness. Hopefully, we will start participating in HNT. This week we might be too busy with each other to do any posting.

I am beyond excited to be back with the most beautiful girl, ever. I will never stop talking about how amazing she is and how I want to be the person who makes her happy. Everyday I fall in love with her more and more. I am a new person with a new outlook on friendship and love. MSW has taught me much about both, and now it's my time to show her my true self. I have always used sarcasm and humor to deflect anyone's efforts to ever get close to me. She has always seen right through me. She knows more about me and then I know about myself.

The most important thing I have realized is that love isn't always easy. It's not always fun and exciting. It's about supporting that person when times are tough and helping your love through stressful and sad events. I used to buckle under pressure. I am going to stand strong and help the beautiful MSW through anything she may encounter. Of course, the sex is amazing, but the times I enjoy the most with her is when we just cuddle and watch a movie. Every time I hold her close I never want to let go. She is everything I have ever wanted and my best friend.

MSW, I love you so much.

MSM

Happy Birthday

2009-08-22T21:57:00.000-07:00

I would just like everyone to know it's MSW's birthday. She is amazing and beautiful and so many things I have always wanted. It's a bummer we won't be able to celebrate her birthday together.

This week was a tough one. We spent much of the time questioning our decision to stay together, but we saw each other for lunch one day. Everytime I see her, I just know she is right for me. The months I spent without her were the most miserable months of my life. My life went straight down the tubes without her. She will always be my only true love. I would do anything to make her happy.

I know you have heard much about me, and most of it terrible. I will admit when I wasn't with her, I was just the most miserable person to be around. Without her, I felt lost. My life just didn't make sense without her. Every day without her was worse than the one before. I just love her so much, and I am going to do anything to make her happy. I know I am repetitive, but I really love her a lot.

I had hoped this blog might start to help bring us together again, but for right now, I am the only one contributing. MSW has some important things to attend to and doesn't have much time for this. So, you get me for a little longer. I am very shy, and very new at this, so I am not the easiest person to deal with. I know anyone reading this would love to hear from MSW. Maybe you could encourage her to contribute by commenting.

Once again, Happy Birthday Love! You will always be the most amazing person I have ever met.

MSM

Yachting anyone

2009-08-15T13:54:00.000-07:00

So, this really has nothing to do with anything other than the fact that it's a sweet picture.

HNT: Not

2009-08-06T18:04:00.000-07:00

Well, summer is busy, plus MSW and I haven't been together in a while, so there is really nothing to share visually. Also, there aren't any followers, so really no need to entertain just yet. MSW gets home in less than a week, and we will hopefully begin a new relationship together. But for now, it's time for bed.

A Brand New Start

2009-07-31T14:18:00.000-07:00

So if you don't know the story of Mischievous Snow White and her love, Mischievous Snow Man, let me give you a background. We were two college kids who struggled with maintaining a relationship in a college environment. That's sugarcoated. The real reason we struggled is because I (MSM) struggled to show my feelings towards MSW. Stress, relocation and a variety of other reasons created chaos in my life. Instead of conquering my fears with MSW by my side, I chose to go it alone. Eventually, I needed someone, and I didn't go to her for help. I strayed and ran to another girl to help me with my craziness. After a short time, I realized how important MSW really was to me. I spent a whole month emailing her while she was overseas, trying to win her back. For the first time in my life, I really opened up to someone. I let her know everything I felt about her and how amazing and important she really was to me. Of course, she was overseas, so what could I really do to show her how I felt about her other than very long emails. She finally allowed me back into her life, and we both looked forward to seeing each other when she returned. MSW returned home, and I did my best to show her how I really felt about her. We were just so in love at that moment. The week she got home, after a day of just spending time together, she admitted that she had ran to someone else for comfort when she was overseas, after we were back together. I was destroyed and in shock. I didn't know what to do. Well, we both decided that we had messed up terribly. We had both looked to other people for comfort when we could have just went to each other. We were young, and didn't really know what love really was. Now, we are starting new, trying not to look back at the disaster that was our previous relationship. Of course it's hard to forget something that lasted almost 2 and half years. Hopefully with a new start, we will both be better at this whole relationship thing. Our old relationship has taught us much, but will soon be forgotton.

Remember, you can't change the past so there is no point in dwelling on it. You can only make the future better.

MSM